I never thought I could...

I never thought I could be a mom, college student, and have a full-time job.  Before Rylen came, I spent my life doing whatever I wanted to do.  Allen and I were very spontaneous and flew by the seat of our pants.  We had a blast partying all the time and taking random trips to the mountains or the casino.  Now, everything has to some what be planned and organized around Rylen.  We can't just up and go when we want and we couldn't anyway.  That child sucks all of our money away, lol.  Which is fine because he is our life now.  It is not easy taking care of him, going to school, working, cleaning and everything else.  But, I wouldn't change it for the world.  At least we can both say we sowed our wild oats and had fun enjoying life before we got pregnant.  Most people now can't say that because girls are having kids way too young.  It's stressful, hard, and even depressing at times but, we have an amazing life and sweet boy to take care of now!!

This semester so far has been....

HECTIC!!!  I have thoroughly enjoyed all of my classes this semester, but it really has been completely hectic.  Between the holidays and breaks, it just feels like were are so crammed to get everything done and completely rushed.  I really wish I had the time to actually learn instead of memmorize everything just to get a good grade.  I actually enjoy learning and gaining new knowledge, but the only thing school teaches is that you better pass.  With college, learning is not important, it's getting that passing grade and spending all of your free time doing useless homework.  I wish colleges actually taught.  Actually let the students learn, really learn the material so it is not forgotten a month later. 

I absolutely hate....

I absolutely hate writing papers.  I feel like I speak proper english and for the most part write proper english. But, I am a horrible writer and always get stuck when trying to write any kind of paper.  I can always think and know what I want to say, but have the worst time trying to put it on paper.  I can't and don't remember all of the rules of writing and all of the grammar rules.  I always wait until the last minute to write any paper because I have absolutely no choice but to get it done.  I only do this because I hate writing papers and I am a total procastinator.  Although, I think if I had more time I would enjoy it more.

If I had superpowers, I would want to be able to....

If I had superpowers, I would want to be able to be invisible with incredible strength of the mind and body.  Invisible because I could get away with doing anything without anyone being aware of my presence.  I would also be able to spy on my fiance wihtout him knowing. That way I know he is doing what he says he is doing.  I would love to have incredible strength of body so I could do extraordinary things to help others.  In the case of accidents or disasters, I would be able to help save lives.  Strength of the mind, so I could be more intelligent and move objects with my mind.  It would be incredible to have any kind of superpowers.

It Hit Me Like a Ton of Bricks!! I couldn't believe...

When my own mother evicted me out of my house that I paid for every month! I needed somewhere to live and the house next to my mom came open for rent. So, it seemed like a great idea at the moment and the rent was only 425.00 a month. It was a decent 2br/1bath home with a huge yard by the lake. I moved and rented from the lady that sold my mom her home. I didn't have to put up a deposit, which was great!! I had lived for about 6 months or so and my mom decided to buy the propert since I was living there. I had to start paying my mom rent, which was fine. I had everything in my name and paid all of my bills on time, especially my rent because I know how my mother can be.  I was working at the Hilton Hotel making decent money and then started bartending at The Twisted Spoke. I made great money there so paying the bills was no problem. Well, I met my baby daddy (lol) and he moved in with me because I would not move out of my house.  Well, working with my mother in a bar was never a good idea because of all of the drama and drinking. I was also going to school at the time. I finished school and got a great job at the hospital, so my bar days were pretty much over and didn't hang out with my mom as much and she didn't care for that. Always trying to get me to come out and party with her. Well, she started a bunch of shit with my fiance, Allen, and started acting really childish. She refused to help fix anything in the house or help with the cost or labor that I was doing so I could live in a decent home. Well, one day we got in a huge fight and the next thing I know she had went to the court system and got an emergency eviction notice to have me and Allen out in 10 days. I couldn't believe she had actually done this to me and at the time I had 5 dogs and people don't rent to people who have dogs, so finding somewhere new to live was quite difficult, especially in the span of 10 days. We had to get rid of 2 dogs and ended up moving to Homeland Park (lol), as far away from her as possible. Needless to say, we didn't speak for a long time. I honestly should have seen it coming, this was definitely not the first time she had seriously screwed me over. So, this is probably why I strive to the best mother as possible and vow to never treat my child the way I was. God love her though!

Rylen Runs!!!

September 29, 2011 was a super busy day for me. I was trying to do housework, laundry, get in some schoolwork and keep up with my 1 year old son, Rylen.  Keeping up with Rylen is not an easy thing to do. He is a very quick crawler and can walk with the furniture and is into everything. We also had to be at the doctors office at 2:20 for his 1 year check up and shots.  We went to the doctors office and my mother-in-law, Shirley, met us there to help because Rylen is a very strong and wild child. I definitely needed help to hold him down for the five shots he got. He cried, of course, during the shots, but only for a minute or so after it was done. We left and Shirley took Rylen with her because I had to meet someone back at home to take care of something for the house. Shirley calls me about 5:05 that day to tell me that my baby, Rylen walked all by himself for the first time. Well, I immediately started crying because I wasn't there and walking is such an accomplishment for us both. So I waited on my fiance to get home and we rushed over to Shirley's house. As soon as he saw me he started walking, rather running, towards me and I recorded it on my phone and started screaming and crying. I couldn't control myself, I was and am such a proud mama and so very excited for him. He was all smiles and I could see how proud he was of himself.

My Baby's 1st Birthday!!!

Friday, September 23, 2010, was my son, Rylen's, 1st Birthday! This past year has crazily flown by. It seemed like a lifetime when I was pregnant and huge!  On friday, I was super busy trying to keep the house clean and finish some last minute shopping for the party that was on Saturday.  Friday night my sister, Baylee, came over to help me finish getting everything ready. I definitely couldn't have done it without her. We had to prepare all the food and get everything packed up and ready to take to the park, where we were having Rylen's party.  I didn't make it to bed until almost 4 am and woke about 7:30. I was already exhausted and still had a huge list of things to do before noon. I finished getting everything cooked and ready to go and then got ready. I left Rylen with my fiance, Allen, so I could pick up balloons, cake, and ice cream. Baylee, Allen, and Rylen met us at the park to set up all the decorations and put out the food. Thankfully, after running around crazy for two days straight, we got everything set up and ready in time for when the guests' arrived. Rylen had an amazing 1st birthday and recieved a lot of awesome presents. Everyone had a great time and the kids loved their party bags and favors!! We were all exhausted by the time we loaded everything up and made it back home. Rylen was tuckered out, full, and happy and was passed out way before we made it home. So, while he was sleeping, we got to open up and play with all his new toys!! We are so very blessed to have great family and friends to have shared Rylen's special day with!